Catharsis.

*copied from my tumblr page*

After getting some advice last week, I was told to journal as a means of catharsis. But of what exactly? I feel calm. However, my mind is on overdrive. I’m not exactly sure of what I’m thinking, but I do know that my thoughts are keeping me from sleeping and keeping me from feeling a sense of relief.

If you would’ve asked me to predict what would’ve happened to me this past week, I never would’ve seen it coming. I won’t go into details, but I have been replaying the entire situation from last Monday night in my head repeatedly since it happened.

I’ve contemplated what would’ve happened had I done things differently prior. Was it possible for me to prevent it? Diffuse the situation? Approach the situation from a different angle?

The entire situation has left me mentally exhausted. Be that as it may, I can’t stop thinking.

I’ve retreated back into my shell and am surrounded by music. Hopefully I’ll be able to pull things from within to share.

Let’s see how this goes.